Hinata, its really weird that you appear to be following this blog you know

Is it built to last? I do hope it is, but who knows? we can't defy destiny.

Sometimes, I wish that I would just gone, like *POOF* tadaaaa im no longer here

Hikari

Finally I tell you how I feel. I dont know whether the timing is right or not. But atleast, you didnt hurt me at all, and make me doki-doki few days straight. And we became closer, although just as bestie.

...I do pray to Allah that He really did paired us together at the end.

...but I just afraid, in the meantime, you'll find someone else better than me.

...You see, Im just too good at being loyal. If I like someone, then there's no space for others. Just for that special someone. And I dont need any particular reason to like someone.

...If, by any chance, you decided that Im not worthy enough, please tell me as soon as possible..at first, honesty taste bitter, but in the end, its the best remedy. I hope that you can be honest. Look at me as someone that would live with you as your husband, not just as your lover.

...I dont wanna go far away from you, but If you already find someone else,. then I will depart until the point that you cant reach me at all..its not a decision, its just how it works..

Lux

You know, somehow I feel that I really like you. But then, you always makes us feel so far away from each other.

You see, I do feel jealous when you keep on talking about him. But then I realize, who am I to hold you down. You got your own feelings.

You do know this right? I know you know it. But you keep on pressing me till that feeling keep on fading away, being dragged down by a strong force.

And now, I just try my best to avoid you. Cos I afraid that the feeling will rise again.

Honestly, I wanna be more than what we are now. I'm ready for any outcome, how it would end up or how it would last.

But then I realize, I don't even qualify for a startup. How am I suppose to see the ending of it ?

"dan dirimu dijanji sang sempurna", when I'm really not someone that perfect in your eyes.

I really afraid to tell you this. Cos I love the friendship that we had build. If I tell you directly, I know that between us, gonna be awkward.

If, by any chance this drift letter reach you, just ignore it. Well I do hope that it didn't reach you.

I just feel that I need to write it out..

Umbra

So here I am again, talking to my own self.. result is coming.. everyone getting "excited" about it..
while I'm in pain of suffocating from the fear of the result.. can I prove that I managed to get up after a fall from last semester.. well I don't know.. but still, there's one thing I wanna state here:

Human, if they met with failure in life, they would say "Its okay, I will get up and learn from this failure..there are always a reason behind each thing that happen"
However, if other people met with failure, they would find and point that person mistake.. why is that? why is it really hard for people to see others effort?,. they also had done their best.. its not that they did not even trying..do you put CCTV around them to monitor what they had done 24/7 ? So you have no right to judge a person that met up with failure..

A person who once had done well.. also have right to fail.. it's the cycle of life.. doesn't mean that a person born excel will always excel till their death.. they also need to taste failure, so that they can do better, and more prepare..

There's nothing wrong with failure.. wrong thing starts when you had given up after the failure..

Armiger

Well,

No one knows what it feels like to be sidekick. Had you think about it? How lonely a sidekick is. He also deserve to be seen,don't you think so?

The one who just can observe, and can't put himself into things that he really wanted to be in.

Splendidus

Back then, I don't know why you keep asking "who's the person that I like currently?".. well maybe you just wanted to know.. but that question is weird, cos you just aim it at me while there are also other friends around at that time.. all I can do is to reply it with "no one'',while smile carved on my face..

There's some sort of weird feeling.. well I'm not sure whats that suppose to mean.. we aren't that close, but somehow I feel like I wanna try my best to protect you.. It's quite confusing for me..

Calumniantium

Sometimes, I feel tired. There's so many things that I think of everyday, worrying too much..  All of these makes me feel weak.. cos this is reality, it's not like a drama where the hero can run away and safe the heroine, and kick those antagonist right on time.. I feel helpless..

Somehow, I love to be trusted.. but me, myself.. sometimes I didn't trust my own self.. I feel that I can't  be someone that can be depend on..  maybe I'm just a good talker, that hides my cowardness.. I throw advises to family,to friends,yet.. I'm not sure, am I really following what I said?

 maybe I'm a person..that just good at pleasing others, but not my own self..

Helianthus

There was a time, when I was walking pass by your side, then suddenly you stand up and stop me.. At that time, I nearly pass out..You said something and I just replied with "ahh yes,yes".. and I rush to toilet and scream like a crazy person..  ahh what was I thinking back than.. well I don't think you remember when and why you stopped me..but it's still clear in my mind.. still, it's just a funny thing to be remembered, nothing more.. I guess

Yek-lucorp

That moment, when you asked me "Had you ever feel so lonely in your life?".. that question struck like a lightning straight to my heart. Deep down, I feel really bad. I feel that I'm not a good friend. I'm so sorry. Sorry to leave you. And my decision few years back than, making you all alone by yourself. I keep thinking to myself, what should I do to be fair between both sides of friends, when one sides keep pulling and the other sides seems to be pushing me away. But it's not you, you're not wrong at all.

It's hard to be neutral.. pH 7.. people might think that it is good to be a person that easily going.. when all people can feel comfortable with you.. deep down, it's hard to satisfy all person..

Pomum

I can't get what I want,but I deeply believe that you can. You're on your right track. A little bit more and you will able to grab it. Good luck

Lux

I don't wanna see u hurt again. Being alone is too painful. If there's someone for you, u will be less lonely.That's what I believe...If it's wrong then I'm so sorry..